Wanting

By: Alexandra Ramos
“Blessed are they who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be satisfied.” The world today is all about hunger but for the wrong things. Hunger for power, wealth, and fame but people who hunger for these never seem to be satisfied. Slowly, this type of hunger will slowly replace our hunger for God, faith, hope and righteousness.
I can say I’m confused and lost. I’m in the state of looking for my true being and I’m also looking for the Supreme Being. I’m trying to understand where to put God in my life and convince myself that I’m going to find that place for Him. I just want to make sure about who I am before I secure my belief about God. If I have no faith on myself, how can I put faith on Almighty God, a being that is perfect? It may be hard to understand but what I’m really trying to say is that I want peace within myself. I know God should be the centre of my life, but I guess it’s hard for me to revolve my life in a being that I’m not sure can hear or see me. It’s not that I’m blaming God, but I blame myself for being a coward and not taking a leap for Him and that’s why I need to find myself before I seal my faith.
“Blessed are the clean of heart, for they will see God.” For me it’s difficult to live up to, especially all the temptation in this generation and world. It’s easy to be tricked and be a puppet to someone whose intention is for the worse. Maybe someone out there is immune to this evil, but I don’t believe I am. I know I’ll make mistakes and I’ll be troubled by those mistakes but I’ll never do something I know is wrong intentionally and I will learn from them.