“JOURNAL ENTRY…A WIFE RECALLING THE PAST”

“JOURNAL ENTRY…A WIFE RECALLING THE PAST”
By: CLFootnotes
How long has it been? Was it ten, twenty years or more than two decades? The passage of time just felt so fleeting. I could remember, so vividly, the day you proposed to me. You tried your best to make it the night I wouldn’t forget. It was funny seeing you fumble on your words, trying so hard to lose all that bravado you openly showed everyone in the village. You were always like that, to those who didn’t see past the mask you wore. You wore it so well; so much confidence that misled even the wisest of the populace. That was one of the things which drew me to you in the first place. Your boundless enthusiasm, your iron determination in the face of insurmountable odds, and these characteristics I simply lacked.
Yet, I saw past that. You were orphaned at young age; a victim of circumstance. Almost everyone in the village hated you. They did not see the burden you carried for us all to keep us safe. You were a sad and lonely child; all you wanted were some friends, or a family to call your own. Yes, there were those who cared for you, but they couldn’t always be there, and I saw in your expressive blue eyes, the need to talk to someone intimately.
I wanted to be that person. I wanted to stand by your side. Every time I look back to those dark days, shame would always follow. I was too much of a coward and weakling. No, I’m not a coward, nor am I weak! You said those words to me during time of great despair. You gave me the courage to stand up to those who outclassed both you and me. I still remember my friends telling you swore revenge in front of all of our peers against my cousin. You did that for me, and I smiled when I heard that, as well as worried. Knowing in the first hand what my cousin is capable of doing, that didn’t stop you, and in the end you did defeat him.
Time just seem to blur from there. All the tragic events came to pass. Learning from your parents’ failed bond, the reason for the burden you carried made you quite smarter; you asked my hand for our marriage. I still have butterflies in my stomach every time I remember that event. I will never forget that day; or the night afterwards. It would be something that will always be in my heart. It was the day that the two of us became whole; the day our feelings were laid bare to everyone. I was surprised that father gave us his blessing. You always had that strange charisma you always seem to carry, whether you knew it or not.
Now, it is our time of bliss; a bright future awaiting us, and our soon to be family. I just hope that our children won’t be as loud as you. After all, you are unique in every sense of the word. It would do no good if people started seeing miniatures of you running around pulling pranks and gorging themselves on your favourite food. I’m your wife, and soon-to-be-mother, I’m sure that some of my traits I will pass down to them, our kids. I’ll always love you, my dear, sweet husband. Indeed you are the light of my life forever. You’re all mine, I’m all yours, until death will separate us…